Monday, August 25, 2014

I'll Smile

I'll smile in the morning after the cold night has passed
I'll smile in the morning after I've cried my last
tear soaked satin pillows soft as clouds
I'll smile in the morning when the demons aren't so loud

I'll smile in the morning to make the day seem brighter
I'll smile in the morning and done the spirit of the fighter
of equality, sexuality, femininity, minorities and above all humility
I'll smile in the morning and embrace my vanity

I'll smile in the morning after I've laid my dreams to rest
I'll smile in the morning after I've snuggled to your chest
Following making love, a love that does not exist
I'll smile in the morning... well, only if you insist

I'll smile in the morning and justify my actions
I'll smile in the morning and piece together the fractions
of my soul that I am told I'm forced to behold
I'll smile in the morning and pretend not to be so cold

I'll smile in the morning and forget the one that got away
I'll smile in the morning and won't wish that they hadn't stayed
in my bed where he held me and whispered softly in my ear
I'll smile the morning and forget the sweet nothings I did not hear

I'll smile in the morning and send the angel away
I'll smile in the morning and listen to the devil say
bliss awaits me if I give into the temptation
I'll smile in the morning and into my frustrations

I'll smile in the morning and stare at the body I abuse
I'll smile in the morning and suffer through its misuse
from hands not my own that worshiped every inch of it
I'll smile in the morning a little narcissistic

I'll smile in the morning while looking in the mirror
I'll smile in the morning and squint to see clearer
the person inside the person that stares back at me
I'll smile in the morning and realize I'm blind and cannot see

I'll smile in the morning and think positive things
I'll smile in the morning and wish that I had the wings
I've been promised and are certainly overdue
I'll smile in the morning after I dream that I flew

After I've smiled in the morning and move through my day
I'll smile in the evenings shortly after I pray
for a brighter sunrise in which I don't hide
The frown that I have clearly hidden inside

Tomorrow I will smile in the morning with dry eyes
I'll smile in the morning and repeat my lies
to the universe, to myself, to my forgotten youth
I'll smile in the mornings, until my lies turn  into truths

Written June 2012